Hemashri discovered healthy boundaries, self-worth, and effective parenting for a life filled with genuine love and care exclusively for Different Truths.

Meeting Shehnaj Parveen a few years ago was nothing short of a blessing. I had gone to her for counselling for our traumatised son, who had become very withdrawn and silent after losing his father at the age of 14. Another blow came immediately when he had to give up his passion, i.e., swimming, for two years due to the COVID lockdown. He was committed to swimming, with the dream of pursuing it further. He had represented the state at the national level and had won a Sports Authority of India (SAI) scholarship for swimming.

Just as I was about to leave her chamber, driven by curiosity, I told her, “Maybe I also need a session.” I had always noticed that, despite going out of my way to help or serve people (which I love), those very individuals often failed to show even basic courtesy, let alone gratitude. While the experience taught me the value of being grateful myself, I still used to wonder, why does this keep happening?

She looked at me and said bluntly, “The problem is not in them. It’s in you. You’re a people pleaser.”

I was initially taken aback, disgusted by her audacity. But once I returned home and gave her words some serious thought, to my utter surprise, I realised she was right.

Indeed, I was a people pleaser. I constantly reached out, volunteered to help, or spent time with others, only to be taken for granted.

As I explored this hidden part of me, I traced it back to my childhood. Being the firstborn, I was always told to be the role model—the typical big sister. Perhaps that’s when I began this lifelong (mis)adventure of trying to be a ‘better’ Samaritan. In the process, I may have imposed myself on many people, many times, without even realising it.

I was always vocal in standing up for others, but when it came to my own inconvenience or humiliation, I stayed silent. Not out of fear, but because I hated hurting others and wanted to test my resilience. The result? This led to growing resentment, silent frustration, and dormant depressive tendencies.

It was only after interacting with Shehnaj that I learnt about the life-changing concept of healthy boundaries.

What is a Boundary?

We all know about the boundaries we put up around our homes—fences and gates to keep our property secure, to prevent trespassers, and to mark what is ours.

In much the same way, we need to maintain healthy emotional and psychological boundaries in our relationships. When someone disrespects or humiliates us, we must assert ourselves. Failing to do so leads to resentment, anger, and emotional exhaustion. If asserting or venting is not possible, the next best thing is to maintain distance and cut the cord.

Healthy boundaries are essential for protecting our peace.

Shehnaj made me aware of this concept, and for that, I shall remain forever grateful. Since then, I have been sincerely trying to put this awareness into practice in my life. I’ve realised that while we often try to change others, the real challenge lies in changing our habits, patterns, and responses.

I’m still developing, but I’m committed to growing. As parents, we need to instil healthy behaviour patterns in our children. Unhealed childhood trauma, repressed anger, or frustration can have unhealthy repercussions even in later phases of life. We need to understand our parenting style. There are various parenting styles, such as authoritative, authoritarian, permissive, and uninvolved. As parents, we must also unlearn and relearn many things ourselves to better guide or understand our children. We must act as role models so our children can learn about self-worth and self-preservation and face real-life challenges directly.

Thank you, Shehnaj Parveen.

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Hemashri Hazarika

Hemashri Hazarika is an Officer of the Assam Civil Service since 1997. Her research on Assam Civil Service brought reforms in 2015. A first-class Postgraduate in Economics from Gauhati University, she was awarded JRF/NET by UGC in 1997. Her experience as a bureaucrat has sensitised her to human sufferings. A solutionist by passion, she takes an active interest in issues related to Governance, Development, Women, Children, etc. Reading, Writing, Speaking and Painting are her hobbies.